Hi Darlings, Happy Sunday.
These past few weeks I felt like my brain was full of stuff I want to put out, so I asked you if you’d be interested in posts that were more lifestyle than makeup and you said yes, so here I am.
I’m not exactly sure how these posts are going to come out or if someone is going to read them because I’m sure there’s going to be a lot of rumbling.
I thought of them as a form of journaling, a way for me put out was in inside my brain to understand it better, that’s why all these posts are going to be only in English. It is the language I feel closer to my soul and somehow it allows me to be more distant with myself and therefore more honest. I don’t know how it works but it does.
Ever since I was very young I had the habit of talking to myself, asking questions like if a friend was asking them to me. That way I could analyze better what I was saying and honestly, it’s how I got this good at speaking English because that’s how I’d practice.
It’s not going to be all deep and psychological though, we are going to also chat about books I’m reading, TV shows, food, honestly whatever is on my mind.
I guess I can start today with what’s in my brain and I’ll update this post with dates and post it every Sunday.
Yesterday I’ve finished the last season of 13 Reasons Why. Although I thought the last 3 seasons were completely unnecessary and I don’t particularly like the show, I want to talk about it.
I’ve been feeling this bone deep sadness for how it ended. *THERE MIGHT BE SPOILERS*
Without going too into detail, someone died, someone, I wasn’t expecting and it left me very sad. It was an unnecessary dead put there to just make people cry and I really didn’t like it. I felt like this season was very “let’s talk about popular topics in a politically correct way”. Clay that keeps talking about his anxiety like “it’s ok if you have anxiety, the life of a teenager is very hard”, it felt very forced. They talked about police brutality, schools shots, death, STDs things like that and while I understand why they did it, it felt forced. It felt like they were trying too hard and it was annoying. That being said, it left me very sad.
I don’t know what do you think? Did you see it?
My sister got me a Stranger Things mug for my birthday and I’m actually pretty pissed about that. I know it’s a gift and I should be grateful but it really makes me feel bad.
The mug is actually beautiful and I love it, but I didn’t need a mug. I never drink hot things (remember we are in Italy so coffee is actually espresso and I don’t need a big mug for it). I don’t like tea and things like that, I think in the past year I drank it ONCE.
So I’m mad because after COVID I’m very short with money but my sister thought that another mug (we have SO MANY) that I’ll never use, that’s going to sit there forever taking dust was a good gift when I literally need EVERYTHING ELSE.
And again I love the mug, I see why she got it for me but it makes me sad that she didn’t realise it’s not something I wanted.
I wish she got me something I wanted that I wouldn’t have bought for myself and I feel like in a moment of anger I’m going to blurt it out and I’m going to hurt her, which of course I don’t want because it’s hurting me inside right now and I feel like it’s boiling in me. I want to talk peacefully to her but I don’t know how.
Like, I know it’s going to hurt her and that’s why I’m not saying anything now that I’m calm but I’m scared it’s going to explode when we fight and it’s killing me right now.
What would you do?
I ended up talking about it with my mom, explaining to her I was grateful for the gifts because I knew they were thoughtful but I needed something more useful.
I’m beyond LIVID. I’ve used Siteground as my host for years, but they decided to raise their prices by 40€! I used to pay 66€ x three months and now they want me to pay 102€.
Without adding anything. ARE THEY CRAZY?
So I’m going to keep calm and do some researches and switch services because this is ridiculous, what do you use? How do you like it?
I had such a nice day today, you know when you have a good simple day?!
Yesterday night I spent hours chatting with hosting companies and I think I’ve found one that I like. It’s very convenient so I’ll make the switch as soon as my actual one expires next month but if you have suggestions let me know.
Today I had a super chill day, I had a fun workout, I just LOVE Pamela Reif’s dance videos, and my cheat meal which was so yummy and I’m also having ice cream later too.
Ok, that’s everything I have for you this week, let me know what you think of this format and what you think of what’s in my brain.